I noticed I was in a rush today.
While listening to my new audiobook psycho-cybernetics I noticed that I was somewhat anxiously looking to finish the audiobook (which was still 6 hours away) – the same way that I just caught myself wanting to finish the sentence as soon as possible (as I’m writing this).
This points to a subconscious pattern I seem to have developed to “want to get to the finish line as soon as possible.” That’s like wanting to die to have lived a complete life.
The new pattern I am consciously installing and practicing now is to pay attention to the very word I am typing. To be with the experience of writing this paragraph. To make my current moment into the means itself, rather than as a means to some future end (which always exists in the future making it nothing more than a figment of my imagination).
Slowing down enough to enjoy the moment. That’s my game this week.
